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The Living Proof

"Prove to me that your God is not dead!"

  The straight forward, nearly aggressive demand of the stranger in the shopping center kept ringing through my ears... Who are you to claim that your god is the only True God, the only Living God?! You have the Bible, I have the Koran, you have faith, I have science. Prove to me that what you believe is the Truth!My insides cringed for a moment, my all too cozy corner of inferiority and self belittlement called out in the sweetest of voices, reminding me of exactly how far my knowledge falls short of a convincing answer. Yes, for a little while my heart got tucked in under the familiar and comfortable blanket of guilt. I found myself wishing I've spent more adult-hours studying apologetics or arming myself with better verses to at least try and defend myself, defend my faith and most importantly defend my God!Oh, but how foolish have I been! As if... as if the Creator of the universe is in need of one of His creatures to try and defend Him! As if the Father of Lights is helplessly depending on one of His children to fight for Him, with nothing more than utterable words!The voice of the Most High God roared through the chambers of my soul with a whisper surer than my guilt. This roar emanated from one starry night when I first cried out to a God, whom I only knew from hearsay. It started as a desperate spark but it soon became an atomic explosion of love and righteousness devouring my sinful ways. It completely annihilated my sick desire to create a satisfying life through made-up truths and colorful lies.It gave my meaningless existence beautiful purpose, fulfilling me in the deepest of ways!Can I prove that my God is the only true God, that He is not dead? With clever arguments an well constructed evidence.... No, I can not.BUT I know that I know that I am not the same person that I was before I met Jesus Christ! That I am not the same person that I was yesterday! Since He became Lord of my life I learned how to forgive, to give; I learned how to love beyond the limits and boundaries that my humaness so logically tried to construct. I used to be addicted to affirmation and attention - I am not anymore.I used to seek my identity in fleeting pleasures - I do not anymore.I used to compare myself up to a point of hating myself - I do not do that anymore. My heart was made new and daily I can see how Father God loves on me in a way that changes me. Joy and patience takes the place of jealousy and frustration, harshness and bitterness turns into gentle compassion and understanding grace - for myself and others.I find myself dreaming dreams that goes beyond myself: loving the world's most unloved people, wanting to to surrender my all to serve the unwanted and forgotten of our time.The truth is that I am not telling you this to make you feel guilty or to exalt myself. I know that I know that I am a sinner, utterly deserving of punishment and hell.But somehow, in ways that I don't know how to explain or even understand, God chose to save me into a relationship with Himself!And though I still sin daily and fail to live according to His Word, He still chooses to save me from my sinful ways, without me "wanting to be a better person" or even "trying to do good". He communes with me in colorful moments, calling me His very own. Oh, He gently talks to me, soothing my fears away by never forsaking me, walking with me, being with me...loving me more that my earthly capacity can bear.Can I prove that my God is alive? No I can not. BUT He was more than capable to prove Himself to me, and He is able to prove Himself to you as well!Look at me and gaze upon what He has done! Listen to my story and see the God that stands behind every good thing in my life.  Come, and see that I AM THE PROOF that He is alive! "They shall walk after the Lord. He will roar like a lion. Then His sons shall come trembling from the west..."Hosea11:10 #
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The story of a 20-year old girl: the UNSTOPPABLE God

The story of a 20-year old girl: the UNSTOPPABLE God
A few days ago our team went to the Simon Bolivar Park in Santa Marta, expectant to see God move through our dramas and Fred's testimony. Near to the end of the Broken drama a young girl walked past us and turned back to see what is going on. As she sat down our eyes met for a few seconds and God being so excited with her being there, as if saying "Yes, yes, she's here!!!" Man, God was going to do something big...After our program I immediately felt compelled to go to her and not long afterwards she started sharing her story with Kasia, Charne and me:Her parents separated when she was very young and they never had time to "waste" on her. She used to be in a serious relationship and after finding out that she's pregnant, her boyfriend payed for the abortion. At the last moment she decided she wants to have her child, not going through with the abortion. He didn't know that she was still pregnant till some time later when his friends saw her at a local clinic, going for her check~ups. He was upset, but she confessed the truth, and that same day she got run over by a car and she lost her baby! Her parents didn't believe her, and rejected her completely. They told her that she was a mistake, useless and without any purpose!  She started doing drugs...it didn't ease her pain. She tried to kill herself...it didn't work. So her tried over and over again. Only two weeks ago she found that her boyfriend cheated on her, after dating for over two years, leaving her with a broken heart, no security and no support: "What's wrong with me?". Her parents changed their numbers so that she has no way of contacting them. "Why did they allow me to be born if they don't want me now?" And she's only 20 years old...She walked passed the park, not really knowing why she stopped here, but when she sat down and our eyes met for that second, she experienced a peace like never before... As this girl cried and cried, I could literally see how walls were crumbling, falling to the ground! She cried over and over again "It's just too much, I cannot go on anymore. It's just too much!!"  She tried everything up to the point of giving up completely, nothing worked, helped, but on the 7th of May 2013 she decided to give Jesus a chance!!! As she cried out of her innermost being to her Savior, the sky  lighted up with lightning bolts and thunder roared around us! I've never experienced anything like this before... awestruck!  Santa Marta haven't had rain or thunder like this in six months...We could tell her the truth about herself and as the thunder continued, this 20 year old girl could say: "I am not rejected, because Jesus accepts me. I am not unworthy, because God sees me as worthy enough to give His life for me. I am not unloved, because God loves me! I was born with a purpose! I am alive for a purpose!" I am silenced before my King... the unstoppable God that saves people from out of the ashes! The enemy couldn't stop Jesus from being born, he couldn't keep Jesus from living a perfect, blameless life, he couldn't stop Jesus from dying on the cross but most of all, he couldn't keep Jesus from raising out of the grave!!!  And a few days ago I saw once again how God cannot be stopped when He longs to save His people!! 
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