Something that I have learned from my team this year is the value of family, especially being able to enjoy meals together around a table, preferably a long table. We have had many special moments. Serious moments, sad moments, but most of all a lot of very funny moments. The table is a place where you can sit down, relax and be yourself with the people you love. Through the year God has brought many people from the outside to sit at our table. They would sit down as strangers, but they would leave as family. I believe the table is a special place and that each and every one of us has a seat that is unique to our relationship with Him.
The most meaningful color (well that’s what I think) will most likely be scarlet red. Why? Well it represents a few things like love and blood. It is also the color that can be seen as mysterious and mesmerizing. When a person wears that color, it is as if there is more than meets the eye and that you must dive deep with him/her to see the real person on the inside. With that in mind, enjoy number 13 and see how God changed my heart and perspective through my Luke 10 team named…
At the beginning of this year I got a prophecy by Uncle Joe. He said he sensed that I was one who has dug the trenches, has been in the trenches and fought the battle from the trenches, but the Lord said it is time to get out of the trenches. To go up and over and into the battle with the Lord, and that the Lord will win the battle on my behalf because the battle belongs to the Lord.
If you are bored, I carry good news! You have not yet discovered it.Do you find yourself compromising good to find excitement at your expense? Secretly you must know you are not from here?
Soo yeah here I am with number 10 and it’s been quite a while since my last blog, but that is fine because God had to work first in me about a few things before the next blog can be put up and I must say it was quite a ride up to this point. So with this new blog I pray that Papa will come and show His power, grace, LOVE and faithfulness to you whiles’t reading this blog. So keep calm and read on ( I know, not the best one liners, but it’s fine ).
I have changed. Changing even still. I remember sitting inches from the television realizing with relief that I missed yet another day. Afraid that the day would indeed hold as little as I'd expected. I could not stand being proved right. I would not survive the knowing that life did indeed have as little to offer as I've imagined. So I'd rather not. Not go for that walk, not smell those roses, not dance in the rain, not drive all the way to the top and look at the lights. I'd rather live with the fantasy that those things are the goal. They are what life is about. And so I kept them, subconsciously knowing that they too are as empty as my young vessel.I knew that they were just the only image I had of freedom. Freedom into joy and contentment. But when I met You. Oh my Sweet, You have made life sweet. You filled the vessel and so another dimension, the one I was seeking, opened up before me. I still have not danced in the rain, but even the wind now brings pleasure . I will still have that dance with You, until then I will enjoy everything about You. Luckily You are everywhere. Thank You for life, my Life. It will never stop, for There is nothing else There is nothing else!Now that I have received not even a half portion of Life, I am so filled with a vibrant excitement! The boring chase from one high to the next has been weighed and found wanting. Now I climb the high from one extraordinarily humbling awakening to the next! I want to cry, laugh and scream all at once. The King has chosen me to be His bride. By design, I please Him. Even in the scruffy parts, I am adored by Love. I mean the intricate levels of love that has not yet been discovered by this devouring world. My Love, My Sweet, My King. Even if by force, I could not turn my face from You. There is nothing else! The rest is so painfully dull.
Learning to love differences.I always took a lot of pride in believing I was a supporter of diversity. I have only now started realizing how deep the differences lay and how often we are offended, reason being this ignorance. We did a temperament test a while a go, that changed my perception sooo much! On that note, Oh how I've learnt to love oblivion. One of the Love's sweetest way of loving us is to humble us. "There is in fact more to life than you know" There is more to hope for. Once again I am found wanting. A sweet need to discover another side of His reality, one learns to love so easily. Back to the point, When I realized that my way of manipulating people is in fact not at all their way of doing so. And so when I judge them, actually I am pointing out something that I would do. Eish that hurt! Turns out I judge a lot and most of all myself. And so, yes people should actually treat you how they'd like to be treated which is not how you would like to be treated. So for that to work out we need to be living out of fulfillment in Christ. It is just making more and more sense to me how, yes we can do all things through Him. But we can do nothing of worth ( in eternal perspective, nothing) without Him. I cannot love my neighbor, because even if they were whole and treating me with love, their idea of it is different and offense is bound to happen. James 3:18 You can develop a healthy, robust community that lives right with God and enjoy its results, only if you do the hard work of getting along with each other, treating each other with honor and dignity. Even the great James struggled to like people. Liking people is actually quite hard, because they push our buttons. They do not love us the way we were created to be loved. I mean obviously I am the main character and I need to be adored. The call of dying to myself is deepening every time I feel like I got it now. And so the humbling happens, and it sucks but also its so great ( in a months time or so) to be exposed to more magic. More Jesus magic. His ways are so very different to anything we know and so I have somehow in some kind of masochistic ( for all the critical lollies out there.. you'll probably get it) way started enjoying noticing dead flesh (human/loveless moments), because it means I have now a space where Jesus will bring life. He makes all things beautiful and new. So He directs me to see death, I cluelessly point at it and look at Him knowing His being part of this makes it pop up into life. Nothing He touches can stay dead. It is just impossible. I have wandered off a bit. To wrap it up (I think), people don't mean to be bad and when you see something that upsets you, it is probably something you would do to upset a person. Judging has really put me in my place. I think people might treat us they way they think they deserved to be treated, which are cool indicator to us how to love them.
You can develop a healthy robust community that lives right with God only if you do the hard work of getting along with each other with honor and dignity. -James 3:18I have heard missionaries say one of the hardest things they have dealt with and one of the biggest reasons why missionaries give up is other missionaries. Jesus asks us to love and we think it sweet, untill... -The dishes never gets done-Your spend hours cooking and they have the nerve to give you cooking tips and comments on how loud you are in the kitchen-they stand and look at you running to serve everybody coffee, even when the are appointed to help you-After serving them coffee they pull up their noses for your coffee in front of you. Love is Patient!It is KindIt does not envy In every situation there is an opportunity to lay down your fake sense of 'I deserve' which has no ground. Think that is why we turn to anger. It is the easy way out of conviction. Easy way out of love... Love is a force undiscovered by the world. We are all under the illusion that "I am the main character" and we are all screaming out ways we should be loved, angry that nobody hears us. How ironic. Nobody shuts up and loves. Nobody listens to the needs of their neighbors, not even to mention the needs of their dearest loved ones. And so the universe is groaning and pleading for love! More and more we are disappointed in our loved ones, because we were made to experience a much deeper love than this world could offer. And so we give up and settle for small bits of it, forcing those around us to live with the disappointment that they were just not enough. When you look at it that way, wouldn't you say you are literally fighting against the very thing Jesus is doing with His people. He died to set them free from the lies you keep throwing at them. Kind of like satan, just saying... Key one- people are never going to make you happy. Matthew 10:8 Freely you have received, freely give. He saw our whole lives and nothing we did pleased Him and yet He still loves us. Sit down, be humble. Myself included. So just for a second let your mind go: there is not one person out there with the same framework or foundation. You are the only one that looks at life through your lenses, shaped by your life up on till now. Do think it could be possible that your judgement of them could not have any solid ground to stand on? Only He sees and knows all, and IS the only solid foundation, and He decided to rather have mercy anyway. So when He challenges us to love one another, it means to want His will for them. So ask yourself: am I helping this bride become whole? When one of us suffer, we all suffer.
Oh how I've learnt to love oblivion. One of The Love's sweetest way of loving us is to humble us. "There is in fact more to life than you know"There is more to hope for. Once again I am found wanting. A sweet need to discover another side of His reality, one learns to love so easily. This is how I understand it so don't quote me. We are all made in God's image, but then sin gave us a heart of stone. Whenever conviction takes place, a new manner of thinking is introduced to you. The Kingdom manner of thinking. And so your heart becomes more flesh. Whenever a humbling takes place, stone is being chipped away, until one day when we stand face to face with LIFE, and our hearts start beating.
So yeah, I’m back with yet another blog and I’m personally very excited for this blog. It was something I never really thought of and when I really sat down and talked to God about this, it was like a HUGE revelation (I know there is a lot of them). I pray that Jesus will once again talk to you more and more throughout this blog and that this will also be a revelation to all of you reading this blog.So the topic for this blog is UNITED IN CHRIST and I know, we all heard that term a lot, but let us look past the overused term and let us go deeper into what that term really means.
I can't believe it went by so fast. Last weekend we were at the Bloemfontein prayer meeting where over one MILLION people came together to pray for South Africa. What a amazing experience. You could feel the unity! But it doesn't stop there. We need to become a praying nation. We need to keep praying for our country. Fighting the battle on our knees.