It's truly happening.
So many things, people and circumstances have conspired together to have me not on this journey. To name but a few obstacles; a lack of finances, an old flame and most notably my dark past. I was lack lustre to believe that this journey would come to be a reality for me. I initially withheld from engaging with my teammates fully.
Why build friendships and relationships if it won't bear fruits?
Why build up any plans or expectations if chances are they would just come to naught?
Why risk getting hurt if you have nothing to gain?
Just one of the 'lessons' that many of us are taught early in life.
A dogma that the world had been pushing down my throat for far too long.
Aboard the plane on our way to China.
As far as I can tell, all my friends and fellow travelers are asleep. Yet I'm bubbling with joy. This is real! This journey is happening! Still such a strange experience to trust God with my whole being, I'm still growing in trust and honestly I could hardly believe it even while we were boarding, I don't know if I was expecting ninjas, the army or a natural disaster. I couldn't believe that I'm worthy, "Oh woe is he of little faith."
God makes the impossible possible and it's wonderfully possible to trust in Him. I'm sure my trust levels will get there eventually. I was waiting for my feet to touch the ground in China, let me just say I've got some really bad trust issues.
But wait, an apifiny; This journey is my miracle. Suddenly bawling my eyes out, while no one will notice of course, I have come to realise;
It's alright to trust.
Trusting in the Lord, I have nothing to lose and everything to gain.
Thank You Lord, I stand as witness and testimony, it's OK to trust.