I fix my eyes on You, Jesus, because you are my source of life.
During my two years at university the Lord really started working in my heart and I surrendered my life to Him. I studied BA Law for two years and embraced every moment of being a hostel student. My law classes were filled with excellent lectures, lots of laughter with beautiful friends and merciful marks. It was a wonderful time of spending time with friends that love Jesus and getting to know who I am as a child of God. Although I really enjoyed the experience of being a student, I did not have peace about what I was studying. There was great uncertainty in my heart that I did not want to face for a long time. I was too afraid to respond to how I was feeling.
At the end of my second year I felt lost and I did not know where to turn, what to do or how to do it, BUT, I knew who to ask for help. In the breathless and hopeless moments I felt the Lord saying that He is in control and that He is so much bigger than the circumstances I face. He is faithful and He is a good Father. There were so many times that I felt that there was no way out of the situation and that I messed up big time! He did not have to speak truth into my heart, but He did. He never left me on my own, even though I felt that He was far from me at times.
In this time of not knowing where to turn, Jesus gently took me by the hand and encouraged me to keep on going. In this time of not understanding what the Lord was doing, I held on to the truth that He is faithful. In this time of uncertainty, He was certainly the solid rock of my foundation. Now is the time to give Him praise! Thank you Jesus!
I am so excited for this journey and what lies ahead. I am stepping into the "scary" unknown, but it feels so adventurous and right! Norm Wakefield and his wife, Alma, are visiting us this week and I feel like a memory stick that just wants to upload every bit of wisdom that he shares. Today he spoke about how the Lord promises to always be with us. I know that if I hold on to that promise this year and forever, no fear will be able to stop me from walking in the fullness of His love for me.
My eyes are those of a dove, I gaze upon You with single vision.