Hello Goodbye

First of, hello from this, my new blog with which I'll be sharing some of my experiences of the journey that I'm partaking in this year. This first entry is a short synopsis of what has precluded this journey and also what has happened thus far.After having to say goodbye to a significant other in my life I also tried to say goodbye to the world... Fortunately God had other plans for me and decided I should stay a little while longer. This is when I had reached the lowest point of time in my life and I finally embraced Jesus Christ as my saviour. Some gentle nudging was required from a dear family member, to whom I am eternally gratefull. Thank you Sheilans. I now know that I'll never again be able to fall so low now that I have accepted Christ as my saviour. From saying hello to Jesus started a process of saying goodbye to my old ways, albeit gradually and not without some growth pains.Two months later my brother had come back from Thailand to support me and to generally keep an eye on me. He ,with some initial tripidation, persuaded me to join Global Challenge. For those of you whom don't know what Global Challeng is feel free to check out the rest of this site. In short it is basically a NGO that facilitates journeys for young people to do charity and missionary work throughout the nations. After five years of being a firemen it was time to say goodbye to the service. By the end of November I said "sayonara" to the fire brigade with the sole purpose of joining Global Challenge Expeditions. This is how I've now become a pensioner with no pension and for some reason I still haven't been able to make use of my pensioners discount.These last few weeks in Jeffreys Bay have been all about meeting new people and getting to know one another. We've been placed in situations that have brought the worst and also the best out of us. From survivor like sitiuations through to a Luke 10 journey: Traveling with no money or any type of provision and only trusting the Lord to provide. Throughout all of this we've had teachings from some amazing teachers, pastors and missionaries. We've learned to know ourselves and also eachother better.Already I am accutely aware of a major change in myself, my fellow travellers and teammates. This makes me look forward to what is yet to come!? It's very humbling and also makes me gratefull that the Lord has led me on and to this journey.A journey that I can never deserve nor would have chosen for myself.Only through God's Grace am I saved.Stay tuned for more, I leave Y'all with a verse that has meant a lot to me;The Message Bible Ps 18:16-19But me he caught-reached all the way from sky to sea; He pulled me out of that ocean of hate, that enemy chaos, the void in which I was drowning. They hit me when I was down, but God stuck by me. He stood me up on a wide open field; I stood there saved-surprised to be loved!#
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To love and adore You

Lord;In the cold light I live to love and adore You.It's all that I have, it's all that I am.In the cold light I live, I'll only live for You.It's all that I have it's all that I am This is my way of worship. To embrace every moment for what it truly is, a gift from You Lord. To understand that there is something beautiful in brokenness, even if that brokenness is in me, also knowing that in my greatest struggle there is a lesson to be learned. And having utter and complete faith that Heaven even helps a fool who falls in love. I live to love and adore You.It's all that I have,it's all that I am.In the cold light I live, I'll only live for You.It's all that I have it's all that I am. Being content in every situation.The good and the bad.To live for You, adore You, praise You and to give thanks to You through every trial and victory. I live to love and adore You.It's all that I have it's all that I am. So Lord allow me to climb this mountain with hands wide open. And lead me through this preposterously absurd and crazy adventure, called life. Through peaceful fellowship overflowing with abundance, early morning sunrises that proclaime Your love, lazy afternoons that bring much needed rest, and late nights filled with laughter caused by lack of sleep.Through the journey make me aware of the small things; the smile of a stranger that stops to help, the loyalty and trust so easily spotted in a dogs eyes, a first cup of coffee, memories that come to life with the sound of a long lost song, that indescribable feeling that overwhelms your heart when it remembers that one special person. So I will climb; With great endurance; I will pass through troubles, hardships and distresses, hard work, sleepless nights, hunger and soul shattering frustration, in heartbreaking losses and faith testing journeys. But Lord, I am not capeble to this without You. Not by my might nor by power is this possible. You are my source. My strength, wisdom and my confidence comes from You. And only by your Spirit will I be able to overcome. With that in mind. I will confidently smile at every trial that crosses my path. And with the same smile I will whisper "Hallo darkness my old friend, I have come to talk with you again" to talk about perseverance, so that perseverance may teach me character, and character may teach me hope. And hope will not put me to shame. For in hope I was saved.But hope that is seen is no hope at all. I do not hope for what I already have, but I hope for what I do not yet have. Therefore, because of You Lord, I wait for it patiently even if everything in the wide world seemed to say that You were deceiving me. And that You have been deceiving me all along.My Lord... If You can deceive me, You may, It would make no difference. I must love You as long as I continue to exist. I cannot live without loving You. So with fearless faith I lay it all down at Your feet Jesus. You may take me wherever You please, down the rabbit hole straight into hell it self, or to the heights of heaven, to the far East or even to the darkest parts of Africa.Anywhere as long as You are there.May I learn to follow Your example and be brave enough to pray the same words You prayed in that garden... "Father, may Your will be done and not mine." So open up my eyes to a new light,I wandered round Your darkened land all nightBut Lift up my eyes to a new high And indeed there will be time... In the cold light I live to love and adore You.It's all that I have, it's all that I am.In the cold light I live, I'll only live for You.It's all that I have, it's all that I am.#
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Braaaaa, I love your writing style and it's inspiring!
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"Prove to me that your God is not dead!"

  The straight forward, nearly aggressive demand of the stranger in the shopping center kept ringing through my ears... Who are you to claim that your god is the only True God, the only Living God?! You have the Bible, I have the Koran, you have faith, I have science. Prove to me that what you believe is the Truth!My insides cringed for a moment, my all too cozy corner of inferiority and self belittlement called out in the sweetest of voices, reminding me of exactly how far my knowledge falls short of a convincing answer. Yes, for a little while my heart got tucked in under the familiar and comfortable blanket of guilt. I found myself wishing I've spent more adult-hours studying apologetics or arming myself with better verses to at least try and defend myself, defend my faith and most importantly defend my God!Oh, but how foolish have I been! As if... as if the Creator of the universe is in need of one of His creatures to try and defend Him! As if the Father of Lights is helplessly depending on one of His children to fight for Him, with nothing more than utterable words!The voice of the Most High God roared through the chambers of my soul with a whisper surer than my guilt. This roar emanated from one starry night when I first cried out to a God, whom I only knew from hearsay. It started as a desperate spark but it soon became an atomic explosion of love and righteousness devouring my sinful ways. It completely annihilated my sick desire to create a satisfying life through made-up truths and colorful lies.It gave my meaningless existence beautiful purpose, fulfilling me in the deepest of ways!Can I prove that my God is the only true God, that He is not dead? With clever arguments an well constructed evidence.... No, I can not.BUT I know that I know that I am not the same person that I was before I met Jesus Christ! That I am not the same person that I was yesterday! Since He became Lord of my life I learned how to forgive, to give; I learned how to love beyond the limits and boundaries that my humaness so logically tried to construct. I used to be addicted to affirmation and attention - I am not anymore.I used to seek my identity in fleeting pleasures - I do not anymore.I used to compare myself up to a point of hating myself - I do not do that anymore. My heart was made new and daily I can see how Father God loves on me in a way that changes me. Joy and patience takes the place of jealousy and frustration, harshness and bitterness turns into gentle compassion and understanding grace - for myself and others.I find myself dreaming dreams that goes beyond myself: loving the world's most unloved people, wanting to to surrender my all to serve the unwanted and forgotten of our time.The truth is that I am not telling you this to make you feel guilty or to exalt myself. I know that I know that I am a sinner, utterly deserving of punishment and hell.But somehow, in ways that I don't know how to explain or even understand, God chose to save me into a relationship with Himself!And though I still sin daily and fail to live according to His Word, He still chooses to save me from my sinful ways, without me "wanting to be a better person" or even "trying to do good". He communes with me in colorful moments, calling me His very own. Oh, He gently talks to me, soothing my fears away by never forsaking me, walking with me, being with me...loving me more that my earthly capacity can bear.Can I prove that my God is alive? No I can not. BUT He was more than capable to prove Himself to me, and He is able to prove Himself to you as well!Look at me and gaze upon what He has done! Listen to my story and see the God that stands behind every good thing in my life.  Come, and see that I AM THE PROOF that He is alive! "They shall walk after the Lord. He will roar like a lion. Then His sons shall come trembling from the west..."Hosea11:10 #
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