You must leave everything behind, sacrifice all you have to start something new, and move some boundaries in yourself.
I used to see walls enclosed around me, but now I am living with no boundaries. I am like an unbridled horse- FREE to run the distance. I can’t even see the end of the field- just the sun on my back and wildflowers under my feet. The farther I run the less afraid I become. I have stepped into FREE COUNTRY, where the territory never ends because it was created and is governed by the True King. The walls around me I had made myself- their names were doubt, shame, fear, and useless. My walls were torn down and as I stood in the middle of what used to be my loneliness, I was now surrounded by beauty. The sun warmed my body and the fresh air filled my lungs. I started to run. The ground below me was soft; bright colored flowers were its clothing. As I ran, shackles broke off from my hands and feet. My heart felt FULL as it beat faster and faster in my chest. I ran fast and far, but never lost my breath. The air inside of me was different. Fullness wrapped around me like a coat, I looked down and NEW clothes covered me- lovely and white. I was fearful that I would ruin my new clothing and make them dirty, but nothing could destroy these garments. They were made of strength, dignity, and praise. I felt home in an open field. I didn’t need the walls that I once built for protection and out of fear. I was not scared to be seen or hurt this time. The warmth of the sun, the freshest air, and the softest ground sang LIFE back into me. As I walked, I saw His face- so beautiful, so glorious that it hurt! I stopped in my tracks. I almost wanted to look away or run and hide. But then His eyes met mine. His smile took my shame away in an instant. He was the Creator- the One who broke down my walls, the One who filled my heart overflowing. All of the beauty around me paled in comparison to ONE SINGLE GLANCE from Him. He is my Creator. He is the One brought me here and loved the shackles off my feet. He sang truth and freedom into my dried up bones. I am home here with Him.
I am a tree. Yes, complete with leafs of different shapes and sizes, roots gripping to whatever I find my security in and fruit of different colours and tastes. The soil my roots are resting in determines how my leaves look and my fruit taste. I go through different seasons and I usually look a lot different after every cycle of spring through to winter. Sometimes a thorn would stick its head out or a wilted fruit pops up and I would try to get rid of it as hard as I can, showcasing more good fruit next to the bad one or hiding the thrown with my leafs, but the problem laid in the worldly soil caressing my roots.
When I start to understand that I stand clean before God because of what Jesus did, I don't have to find my identity in other people anymore. Todd White said: "People can't take away something that they never gave to you." God gave me my identity and I can love and serve from this place.
Hello, Welcome to my blog! I'm not sure what I'm doing here yet, but im doing it. This blogging thing is new to me. I want to keep the theme of my blogs about experiences even if it's more personal, but it would be better if you could learn something out of it.
I've been away from home for more than a month now and I find myself thinking again can I hear God, will I ever hear Him or am I even listening... ? So now I'm looking back at these few weeks and everything that happened and if I've actually been listening, By that I don't just mean listening to a sermon or a teaching but also the experiences God have put me in and the challenges I've faced. Although there is probably a lot of experiences filled with Jesus in these few days, there is one that I just can't shake.
Many people believe that the earth is flat, the rest think it's round. Does it really matter? Because ultimately there will always be the hills on the road, mountains with snow hats, valleys with lush forests, oceans with roaring waves, rivers with tons of water which you will encounter and to conquer, cross, climb or swim, requires more than just a strong mind or body, It requires faith and the ability to have no fear.
These first few weeks have been a journey of faith. On this journey God will test your faith, leave you with nothing, but give you everything at the same time (Luke 10 journey) He will create character in you and He will restore your identity by challenging your faith in Him.
He has found me in a desert land and in the waste howling wilderness He led me about. He instructed me and kept me as the apple of His eye. He has searched for a remnant that is willing to walk this journey to listen and obey, to lay down your life out of love for Him. His sons and daughters don't believe in Him so that they can go to heaven. We don't read the bible or pray because we know that's the right thing to do. We walk with Him because we love Him.
His spirit will beautify you and prepare you, cleanse and sanctify you. The journey lies ahead.
"A ship in a harbour is safe, but that is not what a ship was designed for" To be at home safe, guarded and chilled-back seems like the life but what what kind of life is it when you do not go beyond the walls of safety and have an adventure? These past few weeks God came to shift my comfort walls to a point where I was faced with situations that I was ready to give up on everything I ever believed was true. I was faced with a lot of "why do you want me here Lord" and everytime I just felt His heart saying... so I can be glorified through your life and actions. So far our training has been a real challenge but a good one. Every challenge (whether it be mental, spiritual, physical, emotional) God always came and show His love and provision and the "why" was always answered (not fully but every puzzle piece made sense) At one stage God really surprised me by showing me that I can go beyond what I thought was my limit. I am not a very sporty person and a lot of the challenges we had to encounter was hill up or hill down. Running between challenges, tired and out of breath my team mate encouraged me up the hill and before I knew it I was running up! I think both myself and my team mate had to take a moment to come over the adrinaline shock. That's when I realized the importance of having a team. Inside your comfort you don't always see the value of the people around you. When you experience an earthquack and your comfort walls are down and you are vulnerable that's where I learned the value of having a team who not only support me but we can have each others backs as we are faced with the same challenges. "A ship in a harbour is safe, but that is not what a ship was designed for"... I am ready this year be be the ship that God sends to sail beyond the harbour's safety and be a light to every tribe, nation and tongue.